Well, Kris is by far the love of my life. But after trying and trying, it's not going to work out the way I hoped it would. I just want him to be happy and that's not with me.
I have been with him since before I got fucked up. I was insecure when I was healthy, now, I love who I am, but how do I learn to believe someone will see past the wheelchair and not be one of those guys that just wants to put fucking a cripple on their list.
I am past the do anyone because I simply can. I don't want to be that shallow person anymore. I want to make someone as happy as they make me.
I feel like I failed Kris, now I just have to dust myself off, lick my wounds, and learn to live again. Hopefully someone will really love me, for me.
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